Have some coffee...I need to apologize

 If we were having coffee today, I'd apologize. 

Not because I don't have coffee for you. 

Of course there's coffee. 

Duh:)

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I would sit across from you and probably place my hands over my face and start...

I'm sorry.

I'd apologize for not being a great blogger. 

I'd say sorry that I don't write like Living in Yellow or Absolute Mommy or Life of Bon or Diary of an Addict or Casey Leigh. 

I'd say sorry that I haven't been writing all that is inspirational and encouraging.

I'd apologize for not having words that 

get you through your day 

or make you laugh 

or make you think about life and its wonderment. 

I'd tell you I'm sorry for not writing on a timely basis and sometimes skipping days on here. 

I'd tell you that I wish I were a big time blogger that you want to visit everyday. But I'm not and may never be that blogger. 

I'm sorry that you don't get connected with my posts enough to leave comments everyday. 

And that's okay. I wouldn't either. 

Who wants to come everyday to a blog that is just mediocre? 

Who wants to read something that doesn't speak to you? 

I sure don't. 

And I understand...

I stop reading blogs that get boring to me. 

I stop reading blogs I don't relate to. 

I don't mind really. I don't know what to write about anymore. 

I don't want to write about my past and childhood anymore because it needs to stay there. 

In the past. 

I don't feel empowered lately in my own life, so I would feel like a hypocrite telling you how to empowered and inspired.

You know what I mean?

To my loveys who keep coming back-leaving comments every so often - to see if I'm back to my old self and reading because they know the writing is there...thanks. 

Really, thank you.

It's there- the words...

but the words I have aren't positive and inspirational or encouraging and empowering anymore. 

I can't put words into context anymore.

Like Megan said to me last night - I'm going through a metamorphosis and so is my blog. 

I don't know why really and it makes me sad. 

So I'm sorry. 

Deep down sorry. 

Hope you enjoyed the coffee. Thanks for the talk.  I needed that.

Joining Alissa today for coffee.  Link up, k?