Enjoying This Ride





C. S. Lewis

I've been thinking a lot about how old I am lately.

I mean, A LOT.

This April I will be turning {are you ready for it?}

Thirty-Nine-Years-Old

39, loveys.

It will be the last year that I will be in my 30s.

And I don't think I'm worried (read: freaked out) because of the number.

No, that's not it.

It's just...wow.  I've lived a freaking long time!

And I feel like my life has just begun, you know?

My 30s is when everything happened.

Kids - Marriage - Career  - College

{yes, in that order}

I start thinking that I did everything so late.

Yes, I've been so happy these almost 10 years of my life.

 

But all the "why" questions start springing in my head -

Why didn't I start it all earlier?

Why didn't I go to college straight out of high school?

Why was I scared to start a relationship and get married when he first asked?

Why?

But then I think:

Everything happened the way it was supposed to.

I tried to do things my way in my 20s and it didn't turn too well.
Well, not until I turned 29...

I got guts when I turned 29!

I decided I needed to just put it all on Him and put everything in His hands.
You know what happened?

I was no longer trying to do it all my way.

I just went along for the ride.

So...

Where does this leave me with the whole "turning 39" thing?

Oh, who knows.
: )

I think I'll just go with my gut and do what I did when I turned 29.

Enjoy the ride.