My Monster and I

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This song has made me cry. It hit a nerve. The monster under my bed That voice in my head Anxiety at times Depression at others You pretend on the daily that you can get through that day Only one more step Only one more prayer Only one more encouraging word But if you don't feel like it's working That day can turn out terrible.   I've talked to you before about what the doctor put me on Something to take the edge off Something to make life a little easier Something to make me more Me again   But I've since, in the last month, weaned myself off of those I felt wrong taking something when...   I should just be okay with who I am Embrace all the colors of me Envelope myself in my thoughts Get myself through it.   And I feel like I have Yes, there are bad days But there are many many moments of good   When I feel the anger coming on The sadness trying to cloud itself around me I stop.   Stop the emotion in its tracks Just be Me.   I don't need a little half of a white pill to help me be Me I know how to do that all by myself I know how to put my best foot forward and walk   There may be darkness at that tunnel where you can't find the light. But I have learned something - my monster and I.   I am the light at the end of that tunnel I am never alone in my thoughts I have the Creator to hold my hand through those darker steps towards my light.   I am never alone.   See, when I think I can get through another day When I think those thoughts are consuming me Those thoughts of self-loathing Those thoughts that say I can't do it Those thoughts that try to tell me I'm not worth it...   I let one little voice overpower that negative My voice My light It shines because I know how to turn the flashlight on.   I've become friends with the monster If I give it love, light, joy, a good memory A word of encouragement A friendly "it's going to be fine" That monster goes back into the little hole where it belongs.   In that hole  It can't take away my light.