When there are no words...

  When I write for my blog - this space that I am so very fond of - I do not prepare posts ahead of time. {I just lied - I only prepare when someone is guest posting at my place...} I write what I am thinking about the morning of the post. I usually get the thoughts & ideas for a post the night before as I lay my head on my pillow {and then rapidly text myself the idea(s)} or during my morning workout or in the shower {the best idea place, by the way...am I right?!} or on my drive into work with the hubby. {a lot of the convos my hubby and I have become posts - he just loves that - lol}   But today - This phrase keeps screaming at me all morning...   I have no words for all the thoughts running through my head. I could just free-write or brain purge on here, but that would just be rambles. And rambles that aren't funny are, well... boring.   "But wait...," I say to myself...{yes I talk to myself - and answer back btw} "Isn't this post just a ramble {and not that funny...}???" Yes...it is, isn't it?   But you know what one of my thoughts is? {this thought by the way just slapped me upside my head} This is one of the only places that I can be ME. This blog is where I can write whatever I choose and not judge myself. It's the place that I get to talk to my friends {you, lovey!} and say what is on my mind in my heart...   And one of those things is what this news report says. It talks about a gunman that was at my college last night. It talks about that person on campus while I was in Math class. {and while my hubby and kids were purchasing my books at the college bookstore} But it doesn't talk about how I felt when I heard about the gunman. It doesn't say that I felt His Presence while I rushed out of class and saw my hubby and kids waiting for me outside the classroom. It doesn't say how relieved I was that we were together and how thankful I was that no one that night was hurt. It doesn't say much, really.   And although I supposedly didn't have a lot of words today, my thoughts were loud and clear.   I'm thankful. I'm pleased. I'm here.